The Answer--Finally

Friday, April 5, 2013

Today was amazing!  I have been so so stressed the last few days.  I have been questioning almost every important decision that I have to make in the next couple of weeks, and time is running out.  I thought I knew that I should change my major. I prayed about it and felt good, but then I fasted and felt like it was the wrong choice.  Since I don't know about my major, I had no idea what classes I should take over the spring and summer semesters, and I needed to sign up ASAP. I didn't know where I should live during the summer, and I needed to find a job, since the job I thought I would have fell through.  Things just weren't falling into place.

This morning I was talking to my mama about all these things that were weighing down my heart, and how I just didn't know what to do.  I had been trying so hard to listen to the Spirit, but I was still confused.  I am happy to do whatever Heavenly Father wants me to do, I just need to know what it is!

Lately I have been thinking how nice it would be to just go home for a little while, and then go on my mission, instead of staying at BYU for spring and summer before heading out.  That way I wouldn't have to worry about all the things that had been stressing me out.  I thought that staying at BYU for another semester was my only option so I could have time to save money and finish more school since I will lose my scholarship if I serve a mission.  While I was talking to my mama, I told her that all I want to do right now is come home for a month or two, and then go on my mission.  She suggested that I do that.  As soon as she said that, I had such a strong feeling that that was exactly what I needed to do--the weight was immediately lifted off my shoulders.  She told me not to worry about the money for either school or my mission, because it will be taken care of.  This feels so good and right.

I was planning to go to the temple tonight, so she told me to go to the temple, think and pray about it, and make my decision.  I felt so good at the temple.  I absolutely love it there.  I wish I could go everyday.  I received my answer.  I think I was feeling so confused so that I would just go on my mission instead of doing spring/summer.  I know that Heavenly Father has a plan for me.  Now I just have to work like crazy to get my papers in.  I want them in by next week.

Life is so amazing.  I can't believe how incredibly blessed I am.  Life is so good. :)

I'M GOING ON A MISSION!! :)